Sleepless !

Friday 23rd Dec 2016,12.25 am.

Can't sleep , again !

Not in a mood to read anything. Rather it is too much of an effort to get up ,go in another room and read. I wish I had a kindle.

Why am I sleepless ? Am I thinking of work ? Though it is an unpleasant sensation at the back of my mind, right now I am not thinking of work. I think the call that I got at 12 am from the hospital has disturbed me. Well , when I took this job , I knew that would happen,so no point in cribbing over this.

And it may be due to heavy dinner that I had at a wedding that I attended. Age is catching up with me , can not really digest heavy food at night.

Or is it the excitement ? My books have started arriving . This time they are all novels and interesting novels, not too heavy in the linguistics. I am certain that I am going to enjoy reading them. Not like my last order , nonfiction books which became heavy ,dry and boring after a few pages.

This year , I have bought many books. Some second hand and many brand new from Amazon. I do not dare to measure the financial side of this . I did not keep my resolution of not buying anymore books before I could finish the previous ones.

One more resolution that I failed to keep was weight loss. As in last 15 years , the days passed but not a milligram or centimeter reduced. Actually,by now I am used this state of being. Is that the reason behind my lack of serious efforts ?

Now when I think of it , I haven't really followed any of my resolutions this year. But I will make new ones on 31st Dec. ,simply because I enjoy doing it. I love the few minutes of daydreaming that follows the resolutions. And every year there is a tiny hope...the XYZ book that I read this year was superb ! I am sure it will help me achieve all that I want to !!

Finally , my eyes have started drooping. I seem to have found a good way to utilize this solitude in the cozy darkness of my bedroom.

It is a way of talking to myself...a digital diary !

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